SAPpy

Three months ago, I really didn't have an idea how to do any SAP configuration. I had looked at stuff, played around with stuff, pretended I knew stuff, but I didn't actually know what was going on. Functionally, I was a glorified secretary.

Two months ago, something clicked. Suddenly I "got it". I understood Time Evaluation. I knew how and why it worked. I understood how it fit in with Time Recording. I understood what a schema was, what a rule was, and how the two worked together. A visceral epiphany. For the first time since starting my SAP career, I felt useful. Kim (my boss) gave me more responsibility.

Last month, it got hard. It used to be that I could slack a little bit during the day. But not last month. What changed? The client started testing the code. It's not that there was a ton of stuff wrong, it's just that I was responsible to fix it. 13 hour days were pretty much the norm. I started having trouble sleeping. I started eating more. I was physically and mentally wasted on the weekends.

This month, it's over. Not the project, but the super-stress. I've sort of come full circle. I don't feel as suffocated by work. My schedule feels more flexible. And this time, my mental freedom comes from the confidence in my ability, not the lack of my responsibility.